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 This day has been a day of rude awakenings.

I've been pondering how to strengthen my hands, because I know they're a little weak, and I've been pondering how long it's been since I actually did anything beyond a gentle walk. So today I put #4-son to work hauling mulch while I weeded. Jeez-oh-petes! I found out how long it's been since I've done any exercise and exactly how weak my hands are. *sigh* Got that small task done, and I'll do more tomorrow, because now I know how to strengthen my hands... weeding! :-) (Read more)

 I edited today. Yah for me! :-)

And I won't give myself a hard time because I didn't get very far, because I read over the first chapter, and like the new transition. It's completely in character, and I put in a hint of something into the first chapter, which makes it fall right into place. And it worked out well. So, my fight for the last... how long?... checking... around 4 months is finally over, the transition from chapter 1 to chapter 2 is done.

As I write that last sentence, I'm not sure if that's a sad thing (it taking so long for something seemingly so simple) or a happy thing (I'm not stuck). But I said I wouldn't give myself a hard time, so I won't... it's a happy thing. :-)

Plus, I got a whole bunch of other stuff done, which somewhat whittled down my to-do list. It helps that I keep an actual list, and that way I can see what I got done today. It doesn't feel quite so pointless. So, lots done, again a happy thing. :-) (Read more)

 I was hermiting again all last week, which I need to quit doing, but I keep getting so overwhelmed by my life's circumstances that I can't handle being around other people. Last week was unusual in that I got holed up watching Buffy seasons 5 and 6, rather than my usuay hermit pasttime of reading. Kids borrowed the last season, from the friend they borrowed the rest from, and they're watching it, I've been avoiding it, in hopes I don't get sucked back into it again this week, because I have soooo much to do.

It struck me yesterday how truly precarious my financial situation is, and that I really need to get my butt in gear and get myself a job. I'm not to the "any job" point (I'm still hoping for a decent job with pay commensurate with my education and skill level), but if something doesn't show up in the next couple weeks then I start looking for any job, to pay at least a few of the bills while I look for something better. (Read more)

 It's another of those on-again/off-again rainy days... the kind my yard and the farmers love because it's nice and gentle, plenty of chance to soak in rather than just run off... but I'm getting tired of it. When I'm inside, it's sunny... I step foot outside, it starts to rain, until I go back in. Aarrgghh!

And I gotta take #1-son driving again, and he's grousing about it. Too bad kid! But at the same time unpleasant to deal with.

Brain feels like jello... old-man-dog was into his I-want-out/I-want-in mood last night. He can't be trusted to be left inside because he's just too old to have much control left, and his bark is still loud enough to wake the dead, let alone my densely populated neighborhood... so I was up with him for a couple hours until he finally decided to go to sleep. <grumble, grumble> (Read more)

 Today I'm working on making new characterization sheets, which I meant to do yesterday... except that everything got side-tracked after walking by #2-son's and #4-son's bedrooms yesterday morning and totally losing it.

After a screaming fit at #2-son ("You'd better clean your bedroom or I'm going to and that won't be a pretty sight!!"), I stood over #4-son for the next 3 hours as he cleaned his room. Some parts of my help he didn't appreciate, like when I emptied his closet onto the floor. But after 4 kitchen-sized bags of trash, and 5 baskets full of dirty laundry, and things taken out that belonged other places... he has a floor! and everything has a place to go! Amazing! (Mom being snide). The cool thing, though, was when we got done and he stepped into his room to look around and he (11yo) said, "Mom! You worked a miracle!" Awwhhhh... <sniff> (Read more)