My to-do list is so long, so diverse, and all with deadlines of yesterday or people who have been waiting an unreasonably long time, that tonight I don’t have a clue where to start. So, I’m floundering… doing this, and doing that… all of which are little things on the list, but none of them are doing anything towards all of the huge things that need to be done.

Life would be easier if I didn’t have so much yelling going on in my head. “Do my project.” “Don’t forget the class you have to teach.” “Hey! What about my book? You promised you’d work on my book.” “Put me away.” “Clean me off.” “What are they going to think of you if you don’t get your butt moving on this project?” “Did you forget your kid’s eye doctor appointment, again?!” And so on, and so on.

And of course you realize that the yelling in my head doesn’t include any of the demands coming from outside my head. “Mom, come get me so I can get the computer parts I forgot.” “Mom, I need money for this school project, can you bring it to me.” “Mom, I’m waiting for a box to arrive.” “Mom, I think I need glasses.” And so on, and so on.

Some days I just want to find my bed and hide. Today is one of those days.