Still working on the proposal re-work. Last night I read the 2nd and 3rd chapters and cringed... I let this go out??? Yikes! There are four scenes where characters do nothing but blather at each other... I knew better, even then!

But, maybe I've learned to spot it more readily or something. I'm really trying to give myself credit for having learned a bunch in the last year, rather than giving myself hassles for how bad it was... I'm not there, but I'm trying. :-)

But my dither is more about the rest of the blasted manuscript than about the proposal. You see... I had this tiny insight a couple days ago... wouldn't it make a more coherent story if this secondary character was a This instead of a That. Yesterday the little insight grew into a coherent thought. And today that little thought is all I could think about, because changing the character from a That to a This totally makes sense... it will streamline the whole story... I can take out huge chunks of explanation that will no longer be needed, which is a vastly good thing considering how far over word-count I am. <sigh> The only problem it the change requires a major re-edit of most of the book, and probably a re-write of the last 1/4 because it'll change the logic of the ending.

And I spent the whole day dithering because my brain is so completely focused on re-writing the whole damn book in my head that I can barely function. I can feel the words moving and changing... I can feel this scene getting cut, which will effect this, which will effect that... What if I change this? Ah! Then that happens, which smoothes out this and prods that... Aarrgghhh! Stop it already! But the brain isn't listening. Oh! It just found a bunch more stuff to cut... how wonderful... I think?!?! Something tells me sleeping is going to be a challenge tonight.

The good news is that it'll only change a couple sentences in the synopsis and not effect the first three chapters at all, so I can get the proposal done while I'm still dithering. But first I've got to convince my brain to stop the re-writing long enough for me to get the proposal done.

But I'll worry about that tomorrow. I'm kid-less tonight and intend to enjoy my peace and quiet and accomplish nothing.