New Direction
Okay, I finally give into the bit of truth "if you keep doing one thing, and it keeps not working, why are you doing it?" and I'm going to change things.
1) Mornings I write new stuff
2) Afternoons I edit on the manuscript
3) Don't do other stuff until 1) and 2) are done for the day.
I finally admitted to myself, that I need to recharge my batteries. For me, editing is a draining process, and writing new stuff is a filling process. If I only edit, I end up where I am now, worn out and not able to face the next page. And if I only write, then nothing gets finished and I don't make any money.
And I will only focus on editing the first 3 chapters, because that is all I need for the partial that needs to be sent off. Because even though I can't see the whole manuscript, it's hanging over my head, and making it so I can't do anything. Then once that is sent, I'll figure a plan for the rest.
And I won't think about all the stuff that's coming up, and all the things I need to do, and how there's only 5 more weeks of school and WTF am I going to do about writing with four kids home... until I'm done writing and editing for the day. I'll try and make it more like a real job... non-job-stuff gets done after work.
And... if this doesn't work I try something else until I find something that does.
